Stories

Once You Were Given Purpose

As you raise the wand above your head and scream the magic words, something already feels different. The swirling ribbons burst forth from the wand’s gem, just as they always do, filling everything around you—but they are sharp and purple, not those familiar soft pastels.

The ribbons fray as they stretch, and soon you are surrounding by a sharp-edged cloud, sparkling in the light seeping from your wand—that, at least, is familiar, though it trickles forth in anemic bursts. Gone is the brilliant guiding light that once blazed around you, as warm and overwhelming as the sun; the power that settles into you is broken, distorted, just as you will soon be—for the torn ribbons which were once the flesh and bone of your other form, that bouncing skirt and frilly gloves (that ridiculous half-cape and the thin leather strap around your neck), have not remembered their purpose.

The Chalice

When she offers you the chalice, the liquid within tastes like nothing you can recall tasting before—a heady blend of hothouse flowers, their sweetness tainted by the humid decay of their growth, and thunderstorm petrichor, all shot through with a thick and hungry musk.

You swirl it on your tongue, trying to understand the scents seeping up into your mind; your eyes close for a moment, and when they open she has left your side, gone over to busy herself at the stove, suspiciously nonchalant. She doesn’t look at you, but she doesn’t need to.

Untitled Story About Angels

When scientists first started experimenting with genetically programmed radical body plan modifications (which isn’t what they called it—they had a catchy acronym and a billion-dollar PR firm and everything you don’t), the first dozen generations did not go particularly well.

They jabbed needles into eggs and grew monsters: pathetic, mewling things with their bones on the outside or no bones at all, with the wrong number of limbs or the wrong number of hearts, things which were little more than bundles of cancer clawing at the womb that held them.

Untitled Story About Hivemind Assimilation

“Are you sure?”

“Yes, of course.”

“Really? There’s no backing out, not after this.”

“Y-yes. I’ve wanted this for so long. I need this.”

“Well.”

Her last word, spoken from a hundred mouths, echoes around the large chamber. She draws it out, letting her bodies desynchronize to add emphasis. Or maybe to give you time to speak, which, of course, you don’t.

Then she comes forward to embrace you. Not all of her – most of her bodies stay lounged on couches and pillows, wrapped around one another – but enough arms and hands and mouths to short out your gay little mind for a long moment, to fill your body with taut warmth in longing reflection of her bodies’ heat.

Drink Orders

Notes: I wrote this back in ‘17 and haven’t rewritten or substantially edited it since. It’s heavily inspired by the stories “drip” and “vending machine woman” in Trashgasm #2, if you’ve read that.

The date on this piece is not reflective of when I posted it anywhere or even when I wrote it; it simply feels appropriate to claim that I wrote it one year after beginning my transition.

It’s late in the day when I finally remember to eat. Busy, busy, busy, and I can feel the emptiness in my account. My last meal didn’t last as long as it should have. Shouldn’t have expected anything else from a street vendor.